The Best Thing On The Telly On a Boring Thursday Afternoon

"I'm good during the day aren't I." she said. "I don't understand what you mean." he answered. They both just stood there in the living room. Neither one of them moving. "During the boring , bright day, I'm good. I'm the best you're gonna get. I'm the best thing on the telly on a boring Thursday afternoon." she said. Her eyes were sad. He had no idea where all of this was coming from. "I don't understand." he just repeated. "Thing is, lately... I've wanted to run away. I want to run away from you. From how I feel for you. But I haven't because if this is just a dream, it's so painful to wake up." she answered. He took a step towards her and she took a step back. She went to the kitchen counter and leaned on it and stared right into the thin air. She couldn't look him in the eye. "But the thing is that I want to run away with you too. I want to climb the highest peaks. I want to catch each other when we fall." she said. Her lower lip trembled a bit and she took a deep breath. He wanted to go to her but she was like a stray cat he'd seen in the middle of the street. Not to be approached but still wanting his company. "I want to be yours." she said and continued: "But people don't own each other." she took another deep breath. There was a long pause. "So I guess I'll just be my own. I wish I could be myself beside you though." He was lost for words. "I..." he began but she interrupted him. She stood up straight. "So what if you're spending our nights apart with somebody else? I am single. You are single. Right?" "Hey..." he started and dared to take another step towards her. She was spiraling. She wasn't even looking at him. He grabbed her hand but she pulled it back. "Fuck it, really. I need somebody who makes me feel secure. Who makes me feel prioritised, chosen every day. And I understand why you can't be that for me right now." Her eyes finally met his. "I don't think you're the answer. No matter how hard I try to make you to be the answer. You never were and you never will be. Because I am." His heart dropped. "But you haven't realised you are your own answer too."